Tuesday, October 10, 2017

The College Diaries {1}

He-hey, so, here I've claimed this blog will be about post-high school life/college, and I haven't posted on the first collegiate topic, have I?  It shall be remedied.

To be perfectly honest with you, though, I don't really have that many hair-raising escapades or pearls of wisdom to recount just yet.  I am currently attending a local community college part-time, and so far it's been going quite well.

No, in all seriousness, I've actually been really happy that my classes have been going very smoothly.  I was really concerned about taking elementary statistics (because math = haha no), but I have a fantastic teacher who makes it very un-scary, and so far it's been just dandy.  So that's been a real blessing. :)

That's really all I have to say . . . I'm sorry for such a boring snippet of a post. :-P  Planning to be back soon with a more interesting post (about my current writing project) soon, though, so perhaps that'll make up for it. :)

Hope you're all doing splendoriferously! :D <3

Sunday, September 10, 2017

Friends, a pep talk.

Preface:  There's an important difference between man-made and God-given dreams.  I recognize that.  And yes, I do think that sometimes God may call us to give up a dream or to lay it aside for a time.  

But this post deals with a different situation. 

This post is for you, Christ-follower who wants desperately to just get it right, to do what God wants you to do: you who have become convinced, after prayerful seeking and wise counsel, that God is leading you in a specific direction -- that he has implanted a certain dream in your heart; you who've been wooed in the secret place, when it's just you and God; you who have received whispered confirmations; you who have been excited to move forward in faith, trusting him to make things clear in his time and his way.  But now it's been a little while, and you're starting to have that uneasy feeling that maybe you just got swept up in your emotions and let your imagination get the better of you, and you're staring to doubt the word that you received.  

This post is for you, soul sister (or brother!) of mine.

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Dear radiant being created in the image of the Most High God:

You're thinking of giving up the dream?  Of deciding that maybe you misunderstood what you thought was God's guidance?  That you should probably put the dream on the backburner with a loving pat and leave it where it belongs, and get on with 'real life'?

Maybe things aren't happening as you thought they would, and you're just not so sure anymore, and you don't want to blow your whole life on this?  After all, this is your life you're talking about -- the one life you've been given on this earth during which to glorify God and do things for the Kingdom.  What if you mess it up?  What if you miss his calling?

Go back.

Go back to the late-night whispers, the lamp-lit connections that wouldn't make sense to anybody else, but that thrilled your soul because you recognized them as another confirmation from God.  Remember those hushed, awe-filled moments when the LORD of heaven spoke something deep into your heart.  Remember the joy you felt and the peace he gave, and the purpose that filled you.

Now, don't take off without God -- don't let your imagination run totally unchecked.  Keep holding what you hear up to the Scriptures to test it.  But also make sure that you're keeping in mind the words of Jesus -- to "Stop judging by mere appearances, and make a right judgment." (Jn. 7:24)  Dig beneath the surface.  Get counsel.  Stay oh, so prayerful.  Keep an open heart; be willing to be led in a different direction if it's the LORD leading.  Stay flexible and prayerful and humble and teachable.  Try to be 'wise and discerning.'

Stay malleable, and don't latch onto the dream with a sense of unhealthy or idolatrous possessiveness (a different thing than claiming the promises that God has spoken over you).  You don't determine how the dream plays out; you don't bind it with your rules.  You don't clench it so tightly that you choke the meaning out of it.

Yes, yes to all of that.  


If God has sparked a dream in your heart, then make sure that you cherish that ember and you guard it -- always leaving it fully vulnerable to him and his will -- and grow it in his way and his time.  Don't be afraid to wait for the next step to be revealed, but don't be afraid to step out, either.

You go back to the things God told you about this dream.  You keep in mind that if it is God's leading, won't Satan sure as anything be out in force to find a way to convince you otherwise?  Remember that your enemy is real and that he "prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour." (1 Pet. 5:8)  But "we are not unaware of his schemes." (2 Cor. 2:11)

"Resist him, standing firm in the faith" (1 Pet. 5:9), and remember the catastrophic, world-altering consequences that can result whenever someone starts to listen to that insidious whisper, "Did God really say . . . ?"

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And now, loves, I need you to do one more thing for me:  Will you watch these three videos (even if you've seen them before) and really let them speak some truth to your soul?

[I'm sure you've heard this one before, but it still needs listening to.  (Also, I apologize for the somewhat scanty outfit in the beginning.  It's still worth watching.)]

[And then this one brings out even more of its potential.]

[This one is because I just went to an "old-fashioned hymn sing" (I know, right?!) and we sang this and it was awesome and I thought mayhap I should include it. :)  (Also, this video?!  Precious alert. <3)]

(If you want an adult choral version, one more similar to what I heard this evening, try this one.)

"Dance, then, wherever you may be; I am the Lord of the Dance," said he. "And I'll lead you all, wherever you may be, and I'll lead you all in the dance," said he.

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Thanks for reading; and now go and be happy in the knowledge that you are the Beloved of the LORD


It is God's dream, and He delights to do it in us and through us.

-- David A. Seamands, paraphrasing Caleb and Joshua in Numbers 14:8-10

Friday, September 8, 2017

// w a n d e r e r s //

- 05/29/15 -

Daydreamers are misnamed. 

We are not primarily dreamers.  We are wanderers.

Just before sleep, sitting on a swing, in the smell of rain, in snatches of midday reverie that we reach out and capture amidst ordinary occupations, we wander the landscapes of our hearts and the corridors of our minds. 

Clouds are not merely clouds to us.  They are a host of living entities -- lifting our eyes, taking our hands, raising our souls -- pointing far above and beyond themselves to our home, to the place where our wandering will end, safe with our Savior, our Father, our Friend, Who knows what we dream and why. 

And stories -- stories are not lead or ink to the dreamer-wanderer.  They, as one story-spinner put it, are life. And they are music.  And the music is silvery and immortal -- the ballad of the dreamer on his or her solitary but placid road.  

I may not look it, but my soul is a wanderer.  

Wednesday, July 26, 2017

// g a l a x i e s //

- 11/04/16 -

It seems like my inner universe keeps crumbling
All the bright constellations whirling and
Centering into a vortex
Around one merciless planet;
And it only takes so long before stars that
Looked like Tolkien's Earendil implode.
There seems to be no beauty at all.
But explosions of coruscating fire
Can be beautiful, too -- light so cosmic
That it's too brilliant to be tolerated close up.
There might still be an Earendil that
Survives from that disintegration, and I
Won't see the radiance until a refracted comet
Of leftover fire scintillates across my sky
And then I'll know,
And then I'll remember,
And then I'll smile,
And then I'll thank
The Maker of my internal galaxies
For piecing them back together again.

Saturday, July 22, 2017

So . . . I made this . . .

I'mma be honest with you guys:  I don't know how this is going to turn out.  All I know right now is that I feel that God might be leading me to create this blog and to trust Him with its future, so voila.  (For more deets, see the 'Manifesto' page -- and speaking of, is 'Manifesto' too cheesy a title?  It might be, but I'll most likely keep it anyways.)

The shadowy ideas that I have for the blog's future consist of discussing post-high school life, as you can read on the sidebar.  Theoretically, this includes future college exploits/rants, writing WIPs (that stands for Work In Progress, doesn't it?  I'm so out of the loop), and potentially even some sage life advice from the Wise, Experienced and Learned yours truly.  (Ha.  HAAAAAAAAAAHHHH.)

SO.  That, you might say, is the deal.  We'll see where this takes us. 

Thanks for reading, God bless you, and have a great day!